Faithful God.

Lord, When I am weak, You are strong.

I am so thankful for the ways God has been working in my life. Last semester in my bible study group we were gently encouraged to write ourselves a letter explaining ways we wanting God to be working, prayer requests, struggles, anything we wanted to look back on later. Someone then kept the letters, which we got back months later (last week) and got to re-read and ponder upon.

I am so overwhelmed by the ways God has been pursuing me and shocked by the obliviousness I've had to how He has been working things out that I thought were big deals back then.

In my letter I asked to be thankful on even the best days. 

I wanted to talk less, listen more. 

I wanted God to be presently moving. 

I wanted to surrender my own plans for His. 

I asked for Him to make me hungry for His Truth. 

I wanted to stop being deceived my heart but, romanced by a King. 

I wanted confidence in my discernment. 

& finally I told Him, I'm ready for whatever comes next. 

Do what You will, Lord. 

Make me small to make your glory big. 

It's amazing how many of these things He has already answered. I am humbled and in awe of the plans I am starting to grasp of His, plans that are so beyond myself it's unbelievable. There are no words for how thankful I am to be internalizing His focus for my life right now & the ability to grow as we walk together & ultimately, how everyone else is becoming so small (including me) as He gets bigger. 

This journey hasn't always been an easy one but I am comforted by the fact that Christ was tempted, just as I and understands me as I am, yet can use me in powerful ways despite my imperfections.

I really am ready & excited for all He has in store and I am thankful for the ways in which He works, even when it takes time for me to notice. He is good.

God is not unjust; He will not forget your work and the love you have shown Him as you have helped His people and continue to help them. We want each of you to show the very diligence to the very end, in order to make your hope sure. We do not want you to become lazy, but to imitate those who through Faith and patience inherit what has been promised.

-Hebrews 6:10-12

For though I am absent from you in body, I am present with you in Spirit and delight to see how orderly you are and how firm your Faith in Christ is.

-Colossians 2:5