Lost in Lies

I trust God to do a lot of things. I trust His promise to answer when we seek Him out to ask something of Him. I believe there is power in numbers. I believe in the salvation and eternity He promises to those that accept Christ's death for our sins. I believe He will do immeasurably more than we ever anticipate. And I do trust that he is merciful and forgiving when I am completely unworthy of it.

On the other hand, I find it hard to surrender worry, fear, finances, and relationships. I live a sinful life, every single day, my thoughts are sinful, my doubt is sinful, I try and notice and acknowledge it but do I get it all? Why can't I let it go? Why do I feel the pull of spiritual warfare over me, the devil tugging at my sleeve, trying to turn my heart?

I sometimes fall into the pit of Satan's lies: that if I get out of this spiritually lacking relationship with this guy, nobody will ever love me. If I go to work at a Christian camp I won't have the financial need when I return home. Because I made one decision I am no longer welcome to the place I chose against. It's a never-ending string of controversy. And I believe it! I eat it up! And then it upsets me that I have lost the armor of God that strengthens our mind, our thoughts, our hearts for the battles we must face as Christians. I haven't fought the good fight for Christ, I've been battered and bruised against it.

I have had an ongoing prayer for my life in the past few years for God to bring Godly people into my life.

At the end of the day, what kind of man do I want raising my children?
What kind of woman do I want to befriend, holding me accountable?
What kind of example do I want my life to be setting for anyone that may encounter it?
What will I allow the influences in my life to do for the Kingdom of Christ?
What will I accept as truth?
How will I be content with him alone?

But it needs to start with the last thing on that list: being content with HIM ALONE. I need to drop all guards, stripping away all the lies, the doubts, the fear, the worry, the abandonment, the yearning for love and realize that He is enough. He ALONE is enough. Let Him bring people, promise, hope into light. This is my personal prayer and my prayer for you reading this.

If you are weighed down with any of these things: let it go. Pick up the cross instead of resentment, instead of fear, instead of loneliness. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!



Be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the spirit, which is the word of God; praying always with the prayer and supplication in the Spirit, being watchful to this end with all the perseverance and supplication for all the saints... Ephesians 6:10-18

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