Organized Enemy.

We are our own worst enemies.

I have vowed to be faithful to this blog because it is a push towards being faithful in seeking the Lord daily, which I have also vowed to being better at.

I have an abundance of conversational emails flooding my inbox between I & various friends, mentors, encouragements. One I respond to fairly often, particularly, is always very neatly organized from my end & a comment always arises concerning it,
"Are you this organized in all aspects of life or only writing?"
My immediate mental response was
"everything, I'm on the sticky note system."
Anticipating a little comic relief. But as I came across a confrontational opportunity of self-evaluation today, I realized, my spiritual life has no organization.

That brought another vow-to-self to mind.

I created a list of 21 things I wanted to do before my 21st birthday and reading the entire bible was one of them. Honestly, I can't say I've ever read the entire thing, I wish I'd had but there are plenty of stories I have yet to come across. I find myself sticking to comfortable verses, chapters, books, ones that are highlighted and make me feel as though I know exactly where to find what I'm seeking. Organization lingers over my head again like Christmas lights in February.

I am my own worst enemy. I get so busy indulging myself in what seems a more proper way to present myself. My life is a mess, organization is simply a mere optical illusion to make myself believe that I've got everything under control, that I've got it all planned out.

O Lord, I know the way of man is not in himself; it is not in man who walks to direct his own steps
Jeremiah 10:23

Therefore, I encourage you to examine the vows you have (sub)/consciously made with yourself or with God, you know the ones, and to hold yourself accountable for the progress or lack of progress, in that personal journey.
Do not let you stand in your own way.
Do not let your life get so unorganized that the mess consumes you until the sight you had on your goals are no longer able to see.

You can overcome this enemy.