Gray Spaces

I figured there would be a common trend at this point in my life. That we would all be seriously dating or entering into engagements with others we deemed significant. And while some of my friends are, I believe there is some gray space that is filled with the majority of young women I'm walking closely with.

The gray space has become some of my favorite space to venture through.

It's not a time that you have nobody to exclusively call your own. It's a time to love on many people, to pour into and invest your entire energy into things you're passionate about.

The gray spaces are there purposely to show us that there's no hurry to get anywhere fast, especially when you don't know exactly where you're going. A simple reminder that we don't have to have our lives strategically planned out, that a little Faith can go a long way.

I've spent the past few months trying to be someone who lives up to her own expectations before placing them on others, praying to stop wanting anything at all. I've spent the past few weeks letting someone slowly creep into my heart with silly questions and subtle sly grazes of a hand to a shoulder when we laugh really hard. I've spent the past few days feeling completely secure and thankful that for the first time in my life I am falling for a gorgeous, Godly, intelligent, witty, humble, genuine man without feeling like I'm in over my head or like it isn't mutual. I feel reassured not only in the words this man is joyfully speaking into my life but also an overwhelming assurance that my identity is still firmly rooted in the Lord, His plan, and His Truth more than anything else. As we travel forward learning to grow and encourage each other well, there is no pressure to get to any certain destination, only to glorify God well in whatever season we find ourselves in. & it's sweet & it's worth every day of tough patience to trust God in whatever may be next without forcing it to be so.

So, I encourage you to stop desiring things to find you while you stumble (blindly, at times) through this gray space and remember that there is only one thing that satisfies, one love that will always be true and perfect and let yourself be focused there before anywhere else.

Let the gray spaces remind you that there is goodness in all things and that there are lessons to be learned in this lack of plain black & white.

Don't get ahead of yourselves and just let whatever is present, linger. Have Faith that what is meant to be will reveal itself in the best timing because your God has only the best in store for you, even in time of gray spaces.