Make it Count

I don't know how to sleep knowing what I know.

I know that college was everything and nothing I expected to be. I know that I have faced some of the most challenging, heartbreaking, I-don't-want-to-get-out-of-bed, bitter trials that I could have never imagined and also, many moments of immense joy that allowed all of those hardship to fall away completely.

I know that I am a strong, eager, respectable, determined, caring woman that is constantly moving forward, discovering truly wonderful destinations along the way. I know I am going places & I know that I will not be stopped. I also know that I wouldn't mind slowing down a bit, setting a slower pace but that it may not necessarily match the pace of those around me because we are all moving forward, unstoppable.

I know that if I let some of them walk away, I may never see them again.
I have these mixed feelings about leaving or letting people free from the confines of college I've set them in and it's scary. I'm scared.

When everything is changing around you, it doesn't matter what you want or the plans you've made with the people around you because plans aren't concrete.

Everyone is chasing dreams, leaving, pursuing what they deeply desire to be theirs.

Plans don't matter. Having an idea about what we want our futures to look like or where we are going within them...doesn't matter.

Goodbyes are coming anyway.

But the thing about plans not working out and goodbye's overwhelming our lives whether we want them to or not is that it opens this door of mysterious opportunity that has the potential to be something completely unexpected and stunningly beautiful when it catches us offguard.

So, let go of your plans and make the moment you are in count for something.

This moment is your life, the only moment we have for sure.